They said it is normal for pregnant women to get anxious about the responsibilities that come with motherhood at any point while carrying the baby. I think I am starting to have mine when I passed the 35th week mark.
Finances, check. Work, more or less is check. Health, check. New place, check. Baby stuff, starting to come in.
When I finally checked off the important stuff that has been keeping me occupied the past months, I am left with thinking about the things that are coming ahead for me. The delivery for one is something that I have been blocking off my head everytime I think about it. The pain, the blood, the thought of a c-section scare me, so I do not think about it.
I know I also need a nanny. Just looking for one is stressful already.
The sleep deprivation that comes with a persistently crying baby. Knowing that it is just me and Pong to do it for most of the time. I wonder how we will hold up. Will I be able to continue to work while caring for a baby? Will we be able to have time together even with the baby? Or will we end up like the typical stressed out parents?
Parents all over the world have done it right? Raising a baby may be a lot of trouble but if it is such a huge inconvenience then why do people keep on having more kids?
Sigh, 30 days to go.
I am scared.
